a creature, naked, bestial

[the_siobhan]

Still alive. Just exhausted.

Had a conversation with my sister about the fact that she isn't taking any Covid precautions. None. She rides public transit every day and spends at least one day a week with my medically vulnerable father. She prides herself on being able to get good information out of reading studies so now I'm trying to compile a list of studies about the physical impact of repeated Covid infections.

Because I need another fucking job right now.

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My own bout of Covid seems to have left me with worsened vertigo, so that's fun. I also think my memory is shittier but that could also be due to chronic overwhelm. My desk is covered in scraps of paper with reminders scribbled on them. I try to make sure I go through the pile at least once a week to check up on myself but mmmeeehhh, I don't always manage that either.

So it goes.

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Old Man is finally home after six? I think? rounds of hospitalizations. They put him in a program that is intended to try and support the elderly in returning to home as an alternative to long term care. It's been - not going well so far, they have their own staff that manage the daily care and that has a lot of gaps. I'm working on it. In the meantime it's worth staying in the program for the Occupational Therapist and the RN visits.

Several of the bajillion phone conversations I've had today have also been about trying to track down his clothes and his glasses, which were lost in one of the rounds of hospital admissions. No luck so far. He has a backup pair fortunately.

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The big looming deadline on the house is that fucking tree which has to be in by the end of the month. As predicted, I have been reminding the housemate on a daily basis that this was something they put in their name. I'm sure the reminders will be coming hourly by this time next week.

Of course before we put the tree in we have to clean out the wood from the old one. I'll be fucked if I'm doing that by myself, but they were in the States this weekend. Next weekend is a long one so there will be shouting if they've made plans to go out of town.

Altho I'm not sorry when they aren't here. There is something so incredibly demoralizing about juggling meetings, phone calls with contractors, phone calls with care providers, appointments, job deadlines, house deadlines... and then going downstairs and they're watching TV from the couch they haven't left for three days.

I mean other than the One Thing I have to bug them about, their lack of engagement shouldn't really affect me. I don't clean up after them any more so it's not like it creates more work for me when they don't do housework. I know the impact is purely psychological, but I just can't seem to shed it.

Bleargh. Close date is June 26, so six more weeks and they are somebody else's problem.

Can't fucking come fast enough.

Comments

[kest]

I think it is hard for some people when they see no one else wearing masks, to go against the crowd. Which is actually one reason I continue to wear masks visibly in public places. Also COVID sucked and I don't want to do that again and we have no idea where we got it from. I'm just really glad I did NOT give it to my parents when I visited them for the holidays, which I actually put down pretty much 100% thanks to the fact that my very first symptom was losing my voice, so I kept my mouth shut. My memory was definitely negatively affected by COVID but seems to be gradually getting better. A lot more losing things that I just had in my hands, forgetting what I came in a room for, etc.

I'm sorry your roommate fails to adult. I think it can definitely feel, especially to those of us raised female in our society, like lack of care. Like, if someone in MY house was doing a bunch of stuff and I wasn't, I would feel guilty at least and probably check to see if there was some way I could help out, or make sure that there was nothing I should do that I hadn't, so seeing someone else not step up when I've been working my butt off feels like they are being deliberate assholes. But I think a lot of times, especially for those raised male, they haven't ever developed the capacity to even NOTICE it. I don't know if that's what's going on, but that's a thing I have experienced.

[the_siobhan]

This tree thing is the very last thing their name is on. So once that's done I don't have to care what they do or do not notice. But I do plan on cleaning the house from top to bottom once their crap is out of the way.

I did 100% of the work on putting together the buyout proposal and I honestly don't get that. They're hoping to walk away with enough to put an offer on a new place. But they can't be arsed to put any effort into making that happen? Does not compute.

[greylock]

Does not compute.

It does.
"I did 100% of the work" = "hey're hoping to walk away with enough to put an offer on a new place".

Seemless!

[greylock]

I think it is hard for some people when they see no one else wearing masks, to go against the crowd. Which is actually one reason I continue to wear masks visibly in public places.

Same here. I went to the doctor today, oldies everywhere, not a single other person in a mask. Even my doctor, who was wearing one last year, long after you needed to.