There’s a very good book about grief - It’s OK That You’re Not OK - and she makes a distinction in the book about suffering vs grief. We don’t have a choice about the pain of grief. What we have a choice about is the suffering beyond that that’s caused by not taking care of our bodies in the midst of our grief. It’s so easy to not eat, not sleep, not keep to the habits that our body needs. It’s so much harder to find things we can tolerate eating when the grief causes nausea and complete disinterest in food; so much harder to find the energy to exercise when our body is crippled with grief fatigue. So I’m very glad to hear that you’re taking care of your body and looking out for yourself.