the_siobhan | from housework to headwork

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Pretty much I like my body. I would like it more with less weight on the center but i'm working on that. I like my hair, eyes, back, shoulders, smile, laugh, hands. I would change : new back, new knees, weight under 200lbs.

If I liked my body I wouldn't brand it and tattoo it and scar it and beat it generally into submission until it's something I do like.

I want wings.

So you can drop nickles on people?

>Do you like your body?

I don't think I've ever liked my body.

When I was lean, mean and hard, I hated myself
and what I looked like.

Nowadays, as an older, fatter and more worn version
of me, I'm pretty uncomfortable with my looks. It
often feels like I'm wearing someone else's skin.

Maybe I'll hit something I'm comfortable with
someday.

>What things do you like about it?

I used to like that it was fast, strong and
showed off some muscles.

Now I'm sorely out of shape so these are more
or less gone.

I guess I like the fact that I have all my hair
and that I'm still generally fast enough to catch
the dropped glass before it hits the floor.

But what sort of shit is this to be happy with?

>What would you change about it if you could?

Lose 10 years, lose weight, new muscles, get
better teeth, less scars, better eyes.

In my dreams I can always fly. I'd like to experience
that freedom for real.

...

Plus, I could drop nickels like raining destruction.

I'm getting better about liking my body. I'm happy at my height, and don't mind asking people to get things on high shelves for me. When I'm exercising regularly, I'm way happy - I like muscles and am lucky that they come quickly to me. I'm getting to accept that I've got a good rack and a nice ass, and will even show them off sometimes now. :)

I'd rather my joints weren't such sissies, and banish the cellulite that appeared when I hit 24, but that's pretty much all I'd change. Hrm, and when they develop a way to automatically control hair colour / thickness / placement, I'm first in line - being teased about hairy arms in high school was Not Fun.

I think seeing my sister recently and figuring out *why* she looks so much skinnier than me really helped - comparing myself to her never helped my self image, but I've just got wider bone structure. It took a while to get over the contrast between the model ideal of beauty of tall and thin and my own short'n'curvy body, but some positive reinforcement has helped. :)

I'm hating my body more and more these days. Mostly because in trying to improve it, it keeps fighting back. First the knees, then the ankles, and now my back. That's what trying to get rid of 30 or so pounds of marriage weight gets me.

I hated my body when I was 125 lbs. I thought I was fat then. Even though a few years earlier I had dropped 50 lbs.

I always startle myself. When I was in jr high, I couldn't beleive I was the short fat kid with greasy hair and zits. It wasn't what I thought I was going to be. When I was 15 I lost the aforementioned weight, and I couldn't get used to seeing cheekbones, and a single digit frame in the mirror. Now I can't believe that it's really my stomach and waist spilling over my pants. No matter what happens, I'm still startled by myself. I'm never who I think I am. I wonder when I'll be me, because none of these outside stuff feels like me.

So I guess I'll always be uncomfortable with my body.

Len says I have nice ankles. Small or large, I've always liked my breats, but they are seeming weird to me lately. I have great hair and nails. I like my eyes when I have on a fuckton of mascara.

Hmmm. I've gained a few pounds since the Big Diet before C10, & today I noticed that once again, my inner thighs squish together when I walk. This must end. A few pounds off the torso wouldn't go amiss, either.

In the last few years, due to hormonal bizzareness, I guess, my breasts got bigger, & now one is slightly bigger than the other, causing the nipple to sit slightly lower on one breast than it does on the other. Although I doubt anyone else notices, this makes me SCREAMING MAD, as they should be at a perfectly equal level, especially as I have a geometric chest-tattoo which is now slightly distorted. I've never liked my nipples. I could go on, but this is a public post...

I could do without my armpit hair, & a few pounds around the middle, & the scar where my labret used to be.

It would be nice if my hair could be persuaded to grow at the rate & colour I prefer.

So, maybe I don't like my body that much right now. I liked it a lot when I was blonde. Blondeness just made me feel voluptuous & sexy, & I swanned around in silk, & didn't care so much about chubbiness.

Now, I'm feeling a bit of a cartoon-girl again: more comical than pretty, sensitive to stupid crap shouted at me in the street & suchlike. I am hoping that cycling will help with the chubbiness, & speed me away from the rude idiots.

Then again, it could just be hormones...

I very much like my small feet & long fingers, my round ass, the shape of my mouth, the freckles I picked up in the USA & my oddly-shaped ears.

Do you like your body?

if you'd asked a couple of years back i could've given you an almost unequivocal yes. but i'm dreadfully out of shape now, and i can't see any way to fix that. events of the past couple of years have convinced me that it's not safe to go outside alone here.

What things do you like about it?

i'm overjoyed with my New and Improved boobs. they're not big, but at least i now have cleavage if i try. i like the fact that my hair grows super-fast. i like the fact that my nails grow fast. i like that most of my body hair is not that dark. i like that i'm short. i like the colour of my eyes.
ummm... that's about it at the moment. i've gone crosseyed, i never liked my nose, or my chinlessness, my butt's gotten big, and my tummy is flabby. my muscles have gone all flabby, so my arms and legs are kinda gross, too...

What would you change about it if you could?

i'd get it back into shape. i can deal with being a bit chinless, and with my schnozz and my teeth and all - that's just me. but i'm terribly angry and frustrated about letting my figure go.

Boy cut underpants are a big bootied girl's best friend. I'm still quite fond of my gigantic drama free underpants, mind you.

& awww, that's sweet of you to say. thank you. & I am glad to have been a positive influence on your weekend. If one can say that a screaming drunk ninja bitch can be a good inflence on anything. ;P
I felt okay about the way I looked at the time, but all the pics I've seen make me think I look puffy & tired. I think I look like I was happy & having a good time, but I think I also looked like someone who was in DESPERATE need of that good time. Which, you know, is true. Been a rough year. Things have really turned around, but it's been a rough year. if you have any good pics of me & my smokin' hot boyfriend, please to let me know. raaaar.

also, HOT SHIT, bitches totally need to take a road trip to NYC.
We're working out some crazy details in my house, so I am not sure when the Youth Hostle for Hostile Youth will be in bidness, but I am always available as native guide.

bah don't be silly. Last I saw you you looked great. Sure we all have issues with our body but you should know darn well you are cute as a button. And hey, your teeth and wazoo give you character. As for tummies and arms, well it's never too late.

Do you like your body?
feh... never ever ever

What things do you like about it?
I guess if I can say that anything I have is nice, I guess I like the two B's, my boobs and my butt. But they've gone from perky to portly as I pack the pounds on. (wow, someone learned to alliterate)

What would you change about it if you could?
Probably my body shape. I don't like how I'm all roundy in the middle. If I could just have a 24 inch waist, I'd be so happy. Hell, I'd take a 34 inch waist right now. No, I didn't say that... ughh... body issues are something I never dealt with until last year.

Do you like your body? What things do you like about it? What would you change about it if you could?

I do not like it. I am having a neutral relationship with it right now, helped along by the loss of about 15 pounds, new boy-short undies, and low-rise pants that for some reason make my waist look great from the front.

I do like: my breasts, my full mouth that I used to get teased about, the way my hair goes all wavy at the ends, that I am very flexible, my two tattoos.

I would change: my fat belly, my hairy forearms, that my hair goes flat on the top, the rash I've had on my left arm and upper back for the past two years, incipient worrisome joint pains, my difficulty with having orgasms.

I think most right-minded people like your breasts.

/me runs away giggling

Tell me more of my breasts, o giggly one. ;)

Wow, this is a huge topic.

No shit.

The main reason I did it as a question. I'm having a lot of trouble teasing out my own feelings about it.

Well.. as I posted to Stephanie it is a huge topic and I've been wanting to broach it for a while. It's not so much that I'm looking for help with the reflecting, as it is looking for languate with which to talk about it.

2) I figure I have a pretty good idea

3) You and me both, pal.

Yes, by all means. ;->

It probably doesn't help that the answers to these questions change from day to day, or sometimes several times within the same day.

I'm still thinking about these questions. I feel very antagonistic towards my body a lot of the time, as if I want to punish it for not being "perfect" and for not responding how I want it to, and then I catch myself and realize how fucking unhealthy that is, and then I want to pamper myself physically. Kind of atoning for having been so angry at myself earlier.

I'm still working through a lot of stuff.

Yoga helps, and so does ballet, in that they give me opportunities to be surprised and impressed by what my body can do.

Most people's comments have been a list of body parts they do & don't like, with some history (the parts that used to be thin) and future ambitions (I should really exercise/diet). Plus a few fantasies (taller, tail). There was general unhappiness with aging "so far", but little specificity in the worries of further aging.

You could try telling stories about parts of your body. (I tried this, starting with the toes. I feel pretty good about those, but things got more negative as I went upward. I gave up at the knees.)

Might be good to list all the positive things people have told you about your body or its parts.

In my experience, the unspeakable aspects of the body are the most important. Can you express yourself in media other than words?

They are stunningly perky. It is a pity that you generally cover them with clothing, so the full scope of their perkiness & delightful shape is hidden to most of the world. Which is a sad thing.

Images from a certain photo-shoot should be exhibited worldwide to combat global depression.

People would look at them, & say "Well, I guess things are alright, then, if goth ladies still walk the earth with breasts as perfect as those" And then they would turn to eachother, sighing delightedly, & forget their differences & their troubles.

Gosh, I've never even seen

elusis' breasts, but I'm already feeling happier just hearing about them!

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