an apology and an explanation

[the_siobhan]

First of all I apologize for worrying people.

I'm ok, really. I'm just - upset. And I really really hate crying in front of people. And it occurred to me to be rather wry about the fact that I never used to cry when bad things happened to me because I was so numb all the time I didn't feel much. So now that I'm (comparatively) mentally healthy I'm all over the place with the tears and I hate it.

I guess it's not something that translates well in a short LJ post, and I'm sorry for doing that to you.

Long story short, the stomach thing is driving me nuts, I have Axel pointing out to me that I have been getting more frequent and more debilitating migraines lately, I'm starting to get a little concerned about the fact that have been dizzy every day for the past three weeks - and then today I got told I have advanced periodontal disease and I'm going to lose all my teeth.

And that was just my last fucking spoon.

Comments

[the-siobhan.livejournal.com]

Did they teach you how to brush? Apparently I've been doing it wrong for 40+ years. I'm a bit irked that I'm finding this out now that all the damage is irreversable.

[mathochist.livejournal.com]

Yeah, and they lecture me on flossing, which I can never keep up with on a regular basis because no matter how long I keep it up, it never stops bleeding like crazy, and it hurts too, so inevitably after a few weeks I give it up, feeling that SRSLY, I would rather lose all my teeth than go through that every day for the rest of my life.