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[the_siobhan]

The Old Man went into the hospital last Sunday. I couldn't tell you how, but for some reason I had a strong inkling it was for the last time. He passed away on Friday night.

I'm not sure yet how I feel about it. I may not be sure for quite some time. His last meal was with me, sitting on a patio in the sun and drinking a beer. I have a picture of him, grinning across the table at me from under a patio umbrella.

The Long Term Care facilities in this town give you 24 hours to clean out their room. That feels harsh but I get why, there are over 800 people on a waiting list for that room and they all need it badly. So two weeks after renting a truck to move his things into the new place I rented the exact same truck to pack everything back out. My nephew came to help, in spite of being disastrously hung over. The ex-housemate also shocked me by driving up to help - they showed up at my house on time in the morning and then packed boxes, hauled furniture, re-arranged the storage unit, and poured coffee into me when I needed it.

In retrospect, they were always much better at dealing with emergencies than the daily grind.

My storage unit is now full and so is my ground floor. My task today is to find the will and get the paperwork started. Tomorrow I have an appointment with the funeral home. I need to sort through the clothes to find something to bury him in, and I figure while I'm at it I can fill up a box to go to a shelter and a bag to go into the trash. There are photos to go through and laundry to do and parking tickets to pay.

So it goes.

Comments

[sylvanwitch]

I am so sorry for your loss and for the wringing of your soul muscles that you must be experiencing to have this happening now, of all times. I'm so glad you have that photo of him, the joy of a last meal in the sunshine, and I hope that memory sustains you through the grinding obligations and the private griefs to come. *hugs*

[dark_phoenix54]

I'm so sorry for your loss. {{{hugs}}}

[redbird]

I'm sorry for your loss, and I hope the tasks to do with the funeral and estate aren't too onerous.

[badly_knitted]

*hugs* So sorry for your loss. It's a lot for you to deal with. Thinking of you.

[elusis]

Well... heck.

Hell of a way to time your exit, Old Man, but Sio I'm very glad he got to have a lovely final time with you. And relieved that you got some help in a clinch.

Lots of love.

[sabotabby]

I'm so so sorry.

[armiphlage]

*hugs hugs hugs*

[armiphlage]

Please don't try to do everything at once.

[dissectionist]

I am so sorry, my friend, and it also makes perfect sense to me that you’re not sure how to feel about it all yet.

[cornerofmadness]

I'm so very sorry.

[sparrowpunk]

I'm so sorry for your loss :(

[misbegotten]

<3333

I really love that image you describe -- the umbrella, the beer, and the grin.

[immournia]

*HUGS* I am so incredibly sorry. It's 100% normal to not know how to feel after a major loss.

Please remember to take care of yourself in the midst of everything. Its good that you have support where and when it's needed. ♥

[disastrid]

I'm so sorry. I'm glad that you got a nice final memory with him, but what a huge thing to handle. I'm thinking of you. <3

[greylock]

I am sorry for your loss, but I reckon that last memory is the best outcome, especially given all the contortions you went through because of COVID to get him out, safely.

Drinkin' a beer in the sun is pretty unbeatable.


So two weeks after renting a truck to move his things into the new place I rented the exact same truck to pack everything back out.

I don't WANT to start blasphemous rumours...

My nephew came to help, in spite of being disastrously hung over. The ex-housemate also shocked me by driving up to help - they showed up at my house on time in the morning and then packed boxes, hauled furniture, re-arranged the storage unit, and poured coffee into me when I needed it.

The good often balances the bad, somehow. They come through.

Look after yourself.

[kalmn]

"me but an inch to the left" is a very good way to describe the mood I was in after my parents each died.

Remember to breathe, try to eat, don't do any irreversible damage to your liver. *hug*

[sushispook]

Oh. Heck. <3

[smhwpf]

I'm so sorry for your loss. May he rest in peace, and may his memory be a blessing.

[lil_m_moses]

Oh, man. I'm so sorry. Wishing you strength and peace, and I'm glad to hear the ex came through in this time of need.

[nafs]

My condolences. I'm glad that people have stepped up to help you with what's needed.

[houseof9cats]

Peaceful journey Old Man, and peace of mind to you.

In retrospect, they were always much better at dealing with emergencies than the daily grind.

Interesting. My mother is like this.

<3

[ysilme]

My heartfelt condolences, I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope the memory of that last meal with him will be a comfort to you - it sounds like he had such a good time with you, that is so precious!
Also, deepest sympathies for all the hassle and ado that comes with such a happening, I just hope it won't be too much of a nightmare. ***hugs***

[hobbitbabe]

Here's wishing that all the daily work around a death goes as smoothly as can be expected. I'm sorry for your loss.

[miss_squiddy]

I'm so sorry. Give yourself time - don't try to do everything at once. x

[lydamorehouse]

I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm glad you had people to help where they could.

[gatheringrivers]

{{{HUGS}}}

[kalmn]

How are you doing?

[the_siobhan]

I am very tired and sad. But this too shall pass.