an apology and an explanation

[the_siobhan]

First of all I apologize for worrying people.

I'm ok, really. I'm just - upset. And I really really hate crying in front of people. And it occurred to me to be rather wry about the fact that I never used to cry when bad things happened to me because I was so numb all the time I didn't feel much. So now that I'm (comparatively) mentally healthy I'm all over the place with the tears and I hate it.

I guess it's not something that translates well in a short LJ post, and I'm sorry for doing that to you.

Long story short, the stomach thing is driving me nuts, I have Axel pointing out to me that I have been getting more frequent and more debilitating migraines lately, I'm starting to get a little concerned about the fact that have been dizzy every day for the past three weeks - and then today I got told I have advanced periodontal disease and I'm going to lose all my teeth.

And that was just my last fucking spoon.

Comments

[the-fury.livejournal.com]

Could be. Or it's mold dust travelling through the vents - which would also suck fairly hard.

Here's a decent site on black mold discovery/cleaning.

http://www.toxic-black-mold-info.com/moldsigns.htm (http://www.toxic-black-mold-info.com/moldsigns.htm)

[mathochist.livejournal.com]

That's what my front teeth looked like before they were taken out (bone degeneration, couldn't tell what was holding them in they had so little grip on the bone). I don't think there's anything that can restore the bone. But you may be able to stop it from progressing further.

I was told the bone was "melting" due to some unknown congenital disease. I think it actually probably had a lot to do with the vitamin deficiencies, but genetic predisposition does contribute a lot too. Lots of people are vitamin D deficient at this latitude, apparently (and you're even norther than I am). I think the anemia and low platelets continue to make it difficult for me to keep up with flossing (probably has something to do with why it always bleeds so much), but somehow I don't think that consistent flossing would be enough to completely halt this, either.

[baratron.livejournal.com]

Being out of spoons, do not resort to knives.

HA! I need that on a t-shirt! Good one.

[baratron.livejournal.com]

I have received megadose folic acid on prescription before to treat depression. It's safer than low dose antipsychotics but does the same job. I was on 10-15 mg a day - and yes, I mean milligrams. They came in 5 mg tablets. I probably still have some around, because I occasionally still need them when premenstrual.

The one danger with folic acid is that if you take any B-vitamin in great quantities, it can knock out your body's reserves of the other B-vitamins. The reasons for this aren't fully understood. As long as you take a good B-vitamin supplement to make sure you don't lose the other B-vitamins, it's basically fine unless you're pregnant (when all bets are off, and the recommended levels of folic acid differ from week to week).

[baratron.livejournal.com]

Eeesh. *hugs*

How much do you want to bet that it's one thing causing all of your symptoms? And until you find out what that one thing is, you're going to go on being ill and developing new & interesting ailments? Ugh :/ I think that would de-spoon anyone.

[the-siobhan.livejournal.com]

I'm convinced we have it in the basement. We run a dehumidifier all summer long, but every time it rains water just pours through the wall. And the leak is right next to our bedroom.

Given how drafty our place is, I wouldn't be surprised if the spores are all through the house by now.

*sigh* More incentive to get the upstairs bathroom installed so we can rip the walls out downstairs and clean it up.

[the-siobhan.livejournal.com]

I've been wondering about that, if it might be that my food sensitivity symptoms are spreading to new and exciting territories.

I've gathered together enough cutlery to start back on the diagnostic diet, so that will at least take care of my stomach issues for the time being. I'll see if that has any effect on any of my other issues. If not, my next step will be an ear, nose and throat specialist to rule out any raging headmeat infections that I have just somehow failed to notice.