an apology and an explanation

[the_siobhan]

First of all I apologize for worrying people.

I'm ok, really. I'm just - upset. And I really really hate crying in front of people. And it occurred to me to be rather wry about the fact that I never used to cry when bad things happened to me because I was so numb all the time I didn't feel much. So now that I'm (comparatively) mentally healthy I'm all over the place with the tears and I hate it.

I guess it's not something that translates well in a short LJ post, and I'm sorry for doing that to you.

Long story short, the stomach thing is driving me nuts, I have Axel pointing out to me that I have been getting more frequent and more debilitating migraines lately, I'm starting to get a little concerned about the fact that have been dizzy every day for the past three weeks - and then today I got told I have advanced periodontal disease and I'm going to lose all my teeth.

And that was just my last fucking spoon.

Comments

[the-fury.livejournal.com]

Could be. Or it's mold dust travelling through the vents - which would also suck fairly hard.

Here's a decent site on black mold discovery/cleaning.

http://www.toxic-black-mold-info.com/moldsigns.htm (http://www.toxic-black-mold-info.com/moldsigns.htm)

[the-siobhan.livejournal.com]

I'm convinced we have it in the basement. We run a dehumidifier all summer long, but every time it rains water just pours through the wall. And the leak is right next to our bedroom.

Given how drafty our place is, I wouldn't be surprised if the spores are all through the house by now.

*sigh* More incentive to get the upstairs bathroom installed so we can rip the walls out downstairs and clean it up.