an apology and an explanation

[the_siobhan]

First of all I apologize for worrying people.

I'm ok, really. I'm just - upset. And I really really hate crying in front of people. And it occurred to me to be rather wry about the fact that I never used to cry when bad things happened to me because I was so numb all the time I didn't feel much. So now that I'm (comparatively) mentally healthy I'm all over the place with the tears and I hate it.

I guess it's not something that translates well in a short LJ post, and I'm sorry for doing that to you.

Long story short, the stomach thing is driving me nuts, I have Axel pointing out to me that I have been getting more frequent and more debilitating migraines lately, I'm starting to get a little concerned about the fact that have been dizzy every day for the past three weeks - and then today I got told I have advanced periodontal disease and I'm going to lose all my teeth.

And that was just my last fucking spoon.

Comments

[mathochist.livejournal.com]

That's what my front teeth looked like before they were taken out (bone degeneration, couldn't tell what was holding them in they had so little grip on the bone). I don't think there's anything that can restore the bone. But you may be able to stop it from progressing further.

I was told the bone was "melting" due to some unknown congenital disease. I think it actually probably had a lot to do with the vitamin deficiencies, but genetic predisposition does contribute a lot too. Lots of people are vitamin D deficient at this latitude, apparently (and you're even norther than I am). I think the anemia and low platelets continue to make it difficult for me to keep up with flossing (probably has something to do with why it always bleeds so much), but somehow I don't think that consistent flossing would be enough to completely halt this, either.