I have my good days, when it just feels right to be living in my own skin. Days when I feel strong and my muscles flow smoothly under my skin, and I look in the mirror and think "Hell yeah!" And then there are the days where everything bags and bulges, and I feel pasty, misshappen and weak.
amen, sister. Being down with pnumonia for as long as I was really did a fucking number on my body *&* my head. As mentioned previously, I don't like any of the CX pics of me bc I look puffy & tired. Or I think so, anyway.
I am, however, having more "hell yeah" days lately, despite not having bounced back completely.
Stuff I like - I am cute. Funny looking, but cute. I am pretty strong. I have good endurance. I am fairly flexible. I carry my weight pretty well. My ass is amazing.
Stuff I don't like - Various weird illnesses. The toll gravity is taking on my tits. Every pound I am over 180 lbs.
So generally, yes. I like my body most of the time. We have our disagreements, but we do okay.
I do have to say that every time I hear or read someone who I think is smoking hot insult herself, I get a little upset. Sometimes I am upset bc I am thinking "are ya blind, wo/man? you are some hot stuff! quit putting yourself down!" Other times I am thinking " god, if s/he thinks s/he's ugly/fat/whatever, s/he must think I am a circus freak." And then I remember that ppl are generally warped when it comes to body image & go admire my ass in boy-cut underwear.
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Date: 2004-06-04 01:54 am (UTC)And then there are the days where everything bags and bulges, and I feel pasty, misshappen and weak.
amen, sister.
Being down with pnumonia for as long as I was really did a fucking number on my body *&* my head. As mentioned previously, I don't like any of the CX pics of me bc I look puffy & tired. Or I think so, anyway.
I am, however, having more "hell yeah" days lately, despite not having bounced back completely.
Stuff I like - I am cute. Funny looking, but cute. I am pretty strong. I have good endurance. I am fairly flexible. I carry my weight pretty well. My ass is amazing.
Stuff I don't like - Various weird illnesses. The toll gravity is taking on my tits. Every pound I am over 180 lbs.
So generally, yes. I like my body most of the time. We have our disagreements, but we do okay.
I do have to say that every time I hear or read someone who I think is smoking hot insult herself, I get a little upset. Sometimes I am upset bc I am thinking "are ya blind, wo/man? you are some hot stuff! quit putting yourself down!" Other times I am thinking " god, if s/he thinks s/he's ugly/fat/whatever, s/he must think I am a circus freak." And then I remember that ppl are generally warped when it comes to body image & go admire my ass in boy-cut underwear.