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I was bitching at a friend about how staying not-depressed is just too much fucking work. Eat properly, get enough sleep, exercise, yoga, go out in the sun - it just feels like it would be so much easier to uncork a bottle and climb into it.
Which I do occasionally. For a few days. Then I go, ugh, enough of that, time to get up and I dust myself off and get on with things.
Kind of a mini-vacation from being functional, I guess.
I have remarked in the past on the fact that even though I have a really dodgy back and my doctor once told me to give up weights, I've never actually borked my back while using weights. Because when I'm using weights I'm really conscious of where my body is and what my muscles are doing. No, I bork my back when I turn over in my sleep or something stupid like that. Which I did a couple of weeks ago. Doing stretches didn't seem to be helping, so I made my first chiropractic appointment in over a year, going to a place that I can walk to and that seems to have a reasonable handle on screening and cleaning. It's still nerve-wracking, but I've now done it twice and have been the only person entering or exiting.
My stress is not helped by the fact that the vaccine roll-out in my province has been such an utter cluster-fuck. By the end of the weekend I was on four separate waiting lists, and I could potentially add myself to two more I heard about today. These are not actual appointments, mind you and I have no idea if they even have vaccines. Just waiting lists that are getting passed around by word of mouth and maybe they'll call me if they have some and my name comes up on the big spinning wheel with the flashing lights.
FYI, If you live in Toronto, somebody has started compiling info here. As of right now, it looks like it's pretty up to date. https://covidinfo.substack.com/
Another Toronto person pointed me at this site, and I signed up to be a guinea pig for a new vaccine. They did call me back so I'm headed to Brampton tomorrow morning to hopefully get a shot. We'll see how it goes. I'll be curious to see if I can tell if it's an active vaccine vs a placebo, since most of the people I know have had at least some reaction.
On the plus side my seeds are sprouting very energetically and it gets a little warmer every day, so I've been going outside and digging in the dirt whenever I can squirrel a few minutes away from work and appointments.
So it goes.
Which I do occasionally. For a few days. Then I go, ugh, enough of that, time to get up and I dust myself off and get on with things.
Kind of a mini-vacation from being functional, I guess.
I have remarked in the past on the fact that even though I have a really dodgy back and my doctor once told me to give up weights, I've never actually borked my back while using weights. Because when I'm using weights I'm really conscious of where my body is and what my muscles are doing. No, I bork my back when I turn over in my sleep or something stupid like that. Which I did a couple of weeks ago. Doing stretches didn't seem to be helping, so I made my first chiropractic appointment in over a year, going to a place that I can walk to and that seems to have a reasonable handle on screening and cleaning. It's still nerve-wracking, but I've now done it twice and have been the only person entering or exiting.
My stress is not helped by the fact that the vaccine roll-out in my province has been such an utter cluster-fuck. By the end of the weekend I was on four separate waiting lists, and I could potentially add myself to two more I heard about today. These are not actual appointments, mind you and I have no idea if they even have vaccines. Just waiting lists that are getting passed around by word of mouth and maybe they'll call me if they have some and my name comes up on the big spinning wheel with the flashing lights.
FYI, If you live in Toronto, somebody has started compiling info here. As of right now, it looks like it's pretty up to date. https://covidinfo.substack.com/
Another Toronto person pointed me at this site, and I signed up to be a guinea pig for a new vaccine. They did call me back so I'm headed to Brampton tomorrow morning to hopefully get a shot. We'll see how it goes. I'll be curious to see if I can tell if it's an active vaccine vs a placebo, since most of the people I know have had at least some reaction.
On the plus side my seeds are sprouting very energetically and it gets a little warmer every day, so I've been going outside and digging in the dirt whenever I can squirrel a few minutes away from work and appointments.
So it goes.