just a dry fish with anxiety

Somebody sent me another petition to get rid of daylight savings time. I'm sure there's a new one every year.

I guess that means the clock change is coming up again? I have no idea when it starts and I'm never prepared for it. If I was rich enough to be properly eccentric, I'd just ignore it.

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I saw a video once about debunking bigfoot sightings. In one part they showed how a bear's footprint in the snow would melt out under direct sunlight to become a huge bigfoot-sized pawprint even while the surrounding snow was unaffected.

I was thinking about it yesterday when I was looking at the very human-looking footprints that go across my backyard to my back window. When they hit the shade of trees where they pass onto the railroad tracks they shrank into normal-sized coyote prints.

There is something else smaller roaming around back there too, it climbed down into the drainage pit and back out again. Could be a raccoon? I also saw a possum back there a couple of days ago so maybe foraging under the rocks. (Also three raccoons had a brawl on the back deck last night, I had to get out of bed to go open the window and shout at them to get them stop. Assholes. I'm even more convinced that Lord Brock is deaf, he didn't even twitch at the racket.)

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I put a row of pots under the grow lamps in the kitchen, I have arugula growing like gangbusters, basil, parsley and cilantro that's looking pretty encouraging, chives and thyme that might just make it and rosemary that is threatening to die. I also have a whole bunch of spider plant babies and whenever it goes above zero outside I stick a few pots in the library out front.

Next weekend I'll start my tomato and pepper seeds.

This is how I make it through the dark winters when I really want to do is just sit in the dark and drink wine. I used to think I didn't have SAD because my brain always felt so much worse in the summer. Turns out I was just struggling to breath during the smog months.

I always have this vague plan that I'll work on interior stuff when the weather is cold but I never do. I can barely force myself to do regular housework I have such a bad case of don't wanna.

It will all resolve when it's warm enough to go stick my hands in the dirt.

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There's some show on I keep getting ads for called The Empire Strips Back. It's being advertised as a burlesque show, but I'm guessing it's just a musical where the storm-troopers wear silver bikinis.

I also made the mistake of looking at a website for renting cottages in the province so now I'm getting non-stop ads for them. I swear it's not safe to go on the internet any more, and not because of the axe-murderers.