A Rant, A Whine, A Winge, If You Will

[the_siobhan]

I am not a happy camper this week. Not at all.

A bunch of my friends are at the Dance Cave right now celebrating panic_girl's birthday. I should be there. I came straight home from work instead. Mostly because I don't feel like I'm fit company for humans in the mood I'm in.

Part of it is Christmas. I fucking hate Christmas. Even people who I know don't care about the holiday say, "Well, it's a couple of days of work," but since I work at the Blood Bank, that means it's not time off for me. It's just the addition of extra expectations and obligations. I'd find it a lot easier to get into the spirit of being with family if it wasn't something that was expected of me and expected on a specific date regardless of inconvenience or practicality.

As soon as I have enough money I'm flying to a country that never heard of the holiday every December and just avoiding the whole damn nightmare.

The house is turning into a huge cluster-fuck. The rennovations were supposed to take a week. We are now moving into week 6. The reason that we are moving into week fucking six, is because the guy who is doing the work has shown up an averge of two days per week.

I am not happy about this.

And with everything that was formerly stored in the basement now taking up the majority of the first floor, we can't even get the rest of the house fixed up, because there is no space to put anything. Every day I do something to clean or to pack, even if it's something small, and every day I come home from work to the piles of boxes and dirty dishes and I just want to turn around and walk straight back out again.

The worst part is, I had made plans to have people over on New Year's day, because I'm working New Year's Eve. Looks like I'll have to cancel. For some reason I can't see this guy working over the holidays.

And to top it all off, I just burnt a big fucking hole in my arm. Gah.

Fuggit. I'm going to bed.

I think I need to buy myself a punching bag.

Comments

[snickerpuss.livejournal.com]

Hmmm... better times ahead...? (she said, waiting to get smacked)

[eve-l-incarnata.livejournal.com]

As soon as I have enough money I'm flying to a country that never heard of the holiday every December and just avoiding the whole damn nightmare.

Damn. That was my plan this year. Until I can get the hell out, bah_humbug has been sustaining me.

What I find annoying is that I can fully explain how distressing I find this time of year, and people still want to make "cute jokes". I'm tempted to do another purge of my address book.

[50-ft-queenie.livejournal.com]

I was also supposed to be at Panic's birthday, only to have that all shot straight to hell by a large and ugly drama explosion among some close friends.

I have 5 days off starting Saturday Dec 28th. Want me to come over and help you clean up?

the house of doom

[the-siobhan.livejournal.com]

That would be wonderful... If only I had some place to clean up to.

We can't put everything back in the basement, because it's full of plaster dust and I don't want to risk the slight chance they might turn up to do some work.

Maybe if I rearranged my bedroom I could stack everything in there and just crash with the_axel and bcholmes for a while... I hate to have to give up my New Year's Day plans.

[50-ft-queenie.livejournal.com]

Let's toss some ideas around in real time on Friday night, and see what we can't come up with. If your place really does prove unworkable, we can start brainstorming Plan B. Crepes chez Etienne perhaps?

WHen it comes right down to it, we'll all be happy as pigs in shit sitting on your kitchen floor eating breakfast off of paper plates and swigging some hair of the dog, as long as we're all hanging out together.