there's only one bullet so don't delay

[the_siobhan]

I am ON VACATION. And I say unto you, it is a glorious thing.

I made a promise to myself and everybody else who lives in my house that I was Not Doing Useful Shit this week. I normally have a project of some kind when I'm on vacation, taking advantage of the fact that I'm home to do something around the house that has been needing to get done for Chronos only know how long. Last month it was patching up the stairs, previous times it has been doing shit like going through storage bins or painting or organizing contractors. I always go back to work feeling like I didn't actually get a break.

So this week I said fuck that. Work has been kicking my ass, I think I can use an actual real life not-doing-any-work break from all that.

So I've been hanging around the house all week. Occasionally writing. Occasionally exercising. Mostly playing video games. It's awesome, but it's also really weird. I constantly feel like there is something I'm supposed to be doing that I am neglecting and it's all going to come back and bite me on the ass and I have to keep reminding myself that no, you planned it this way.

How messed up is it that I have to talk myself off the ledge because I'm trying to actually, you know, relax?

I obviously need to do this more often.

Comments

[miss_bontemps]

That really isn't out of the ordinary. It's really really hard not do -anything- productive.

Good for you! Fuck the dog. Sleep in. Be lazy. Recover. From. Work.

[baratron]

Reading "fuck the dog" out of context is quite alarming! :D

(yeah yeah yeah. Black Dog. Depression. I get it, now that I've thought about the context :) )

[the_siobhan]

"Fucking the dog" or "dog-fucker" is a Canadianism for somebody who is really lazy.

(Possibly also an Americanism, although now that I think about it I don't think I've ever heard an American say it.)

[miss_bontemps]

I had no idea about 'black dog'. I can imagine it would be startling to come across that, then. :)

[lil_m_moses]

That's me, every damn day that I'm not using every moment to the fullest. I've been having a lot of days less than fully used lately, so I'm always antsy and mad at myself for not doing more. =/

[nicklausse]

Oh, yeah, that's normal for me. Congrats on slaying it somewhat!

[sabotabby]

I think I'm incapable of relaxing. If I do anything non-productive, I'm awash in guilt and anxiety. I hope you can shake that feeling!

[50ftqueenie]

I have a terrible time relaxing. My most successful forms of relaxation usually involve loud music and alcohol. Speaking of which, M is busy Sat night so I just might go see D.O.A at The Horseshoe.

[greylock]

I haven't had a "holiday" for 7 years (and 10 years before that) and a "vaction" for about 5 years, but as I said at work this week: I suck at hols.

Having read your tales, you don't (your hols may suck, but so it goes). But, my word, the fact LAYDEEZ (and by which I mean people, but, hey) who are older than me (or, IRL, younger) are playing more video games than me seems odd. Not wrong, just odd.

But apparently we bought our Wii seven years ago and haven't used it in six, so hope + eternal + springing = profit?

[the_siobhan]

But, my word, the fact LAYDEEZ (and by which I mean people, but, hey) who are older than me (or, IRL, younger) are playing more video games than me seems odd. Not wrong, just odd.

There was a study released a few years ago that said the single largest demographic among people who play video games is women 40 and up. So not so odd apparently.

[greylock]

Man. I am so out of touch. I should run for president. :)