the duality of meatbag

[the_siobhan]

So I buried my mother on Friday.



True fact: I am a disaster human who says "fuck" in a church when everybody is looking at me.

Apparently I am also a responsible adult who can be trusted to organize the finances of another human being without messing it up too badly. Go figure.



Brain weasels have been SUPER LOUD for the last couple of days so I'm feeling more disaster human than responsible adult. And that "drink less" plan has been emphatically defenestrated.



And I've been listening to Stabbing Westward all night. I feel like I should be sitting in my bedroom painting my fingernails black.

Comments

[cincinnatus_c]

Well, if it's any consolation ... all the very most interesting people are both disaster humans and responsible adults.

And I'd say as someone with a healthy respect for churches that there are times when "fuck" is the appropriate thing to say in them.

[greylock]

I find these facts charming, and life affirming.

You can borrow my nail polish.

[bladespark]

That is some rough stuff.

Booze and Stabbing Westward seems like the perfect reaction to it, tbh.

[elusis]

Well, it's a good Stabbing Westward song.

Did my nails in Seattle on Saturday - charcoal grey.

You're not a disaster human, you're a messy human, meaning you're a person.

Lots of love. There's just no good way to go through all this.

[chasing_silver]

<3 I think I missed that you lost your mother. May the ancestors know her name. <3

[runcible]

Considering that there's no manual for this shit, can I suggest that you're actually right on track in feeling like a disaster human? I mean, you're not.

If there's anything that would be helpful, please let us know. You need a fucking break from this sort of roller coaster. <3

[ironed_orchid]

I'm so sorry.

I feel like listening to Stabbing Westward and painting your nails black are completely legitimate reactions.

[disastrid]

<3 <3 <3

[armiphlage]

*hugs hugs hugs*

[tcpip]

All thoroughly justified under the circumstances.

> I am a disaster human who says "fuck" in a church when everybody is looking at me.

Some of the poems I've read in church came pretty close.

Mind you, they were Unitarians...

[runcible]

Oh, friend.

At the reception immediately after my father's memorial service, I turned to my brother and out of nowhere came out of my mouth "'SUP NIGGA?*", a-la Ed from Shaun of the Dead. Pretty sure at least a quarter of the reception heard.

You're excused from any and all social conventions for the next while. If you need a pass, I will make you one, laminated and everything, and put it on a lanyard.

Hecka rooting for you, friend.

(*a phrase I never use for OBVIOUS reasons)

[the_siobhan]

I have to admit, the idea of a laminated hall pass from social conventions makes me cackle.

[nicklausse]

V said it in front of the Calgary grandfather the other day. Solidarity.

Love from here.

[the_siobhan]

*fistbump*

[kest]

For certain circumstances such as especially this, 'fuck' is the appropriate response. So....fuck.

[silentq]

Sometimes it feels like disaster has become the new normal.
*all the hugs*