running for zero

[the_siobhan]

Another hundred-hour week. I'm so fucking tired I woke up crying today.

I can see the finish line from here, just out of my reach. A few more days and the deadline scramble is over, a couple of weeks and the catch-up mountains will be back down to molehills, a couple of months and I can actually relax -- sweet sweet vacation. Have a couple of beers. Hell, have a whole lot of beers. Sleep in. Clear the stacks of files and receipts and dustbunnies and clean my filthy house.

If I can remember how to relax. I've gotten to the point where I try to take breaks and I end up pacing through the house. I can't remember the last time I mediated. A year? Two?

My skin is breaking open again. I'm leaving tiny drops of blood behind me every where I go. The places where I am splitting open has moved up my feet and onto my hands.

When it reaches my head the dragon will burst out and devour everything in my way.

Comments

[blaadyblah.livejournal.com]

Sounds like relaxation is a little more urgent than your timescale suggests. Force the issue before your body does, eh?

[the_axel]

I didn't realise you were that bad sweetie.

If you can find a couple of hours spare tomorrow night i will be pampering you.

Whether you like it or not.

[razorjak.livejournal.com]

Now see that's why one of the reasons why I like you. You're not going to let her take no for answer in the pampering process.

[50-ft-queenie.livejournal.com]

You are a very very wise man.

[tcpip.livejournal.com]

Meditation. Do it daily, at least 15 minutes. It's good for you.

[the-siobhan.livejournal.com]

A past yoga instructor used to tell me that 5 minutes of head-stand would replace 1 hour of sleep.

I have been thinking for years that I need to do more head-stands, but of course I always forget because I'm really busy.