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[the_siobhan]

The icon is what I saw when I looked in the mirror this morning.

I made an offhand comment about making a happy post a couple of days ago. I've been trying to come up with one ever since and it's not been working so well for me.

Thing is, I'm not particularily unhappy. My house is warm. My partners are lovely. There are plans for a couple of trips[1] in the works. People are visiting[2] for New Years, and hopefully for Capricorn-fest.[3]

Mostly I am under assault by chemistry again. I am completely dependent on exercise for normal brain function and I am just not getting it because my back hurts all the damn time. Add that to hate-the-job-that-is-causing-me-pain stress, is-Workman's-Comp-going-to-cut-me-off worries, fuck-I-hate-Christmas blues, another-year-older-and-deeper-in-debt angst and mix in the arrival of my twice-yearly bout of kill-everybody PMS, and I've been feeding the quagmire pretty hard in the last couple of weeks.

So as a result I've been both weepy and cranky a lot lately. But oddly enough it doesn't feel like it's really affecting me all that much. I'm still functional, I still have fun hanging out with people, I'm getting just as much done. I moan about it for a while, or burst into tears at complete random - then I just kinda get back to normal life. It's like it's all on the surface and I'm sitting below it impatiently waiting for it to get out of my way.

It's all very odd.

So yeah. Haven't been feeling like posting much about life lately and that's the primary reason why.

I do plan on picking up crazy_boat again. After Xmas.

[1] My favouritest thing ever.
[2] My second-favouritest thing ever.
[3] It turns out that meshu, 2ndaryairplane, elixxir, bellafiga and I are all born in January. Therefore, we are planning to drag everybody into the same room at the same time to drink copiously. Brace yourselves.

Comments

[50-ft-queenie.livejournal.com]

Ahem...I'm also born in January, and I think Tetsab is too.

[the-siobhan.livejournal.com]

I remember that you're born in the winter because there was a fuck-off big snowstorm the night of one of your parties.

[50-ft-queenie.livejournal.com]

Yep, that was last year. ;P I'm thinking of postponing my official bday party until spring this year.

That being said, If you guys decide to have a joint drinkfest sometime in Jan, I'd love to be included.

[blaadyblah.livejournal.com]

I also have a January birthday. Three or four years ago though, my boyfriend bought tickets to a summer gig in Hyde Park as my birthday present and declared that from that day forward July 27th would be my official birthday. I have never looked back.

I now have my actual birthday in the winter and the official birthday in summer which renders things such as barbecues, beaches, parks and so on possible. Hurrah! Two birthdays isn't just for the Queen. ;)

[otheronetruegod.livejournal.com]

When I lived in Vancouver, 6 or 7 of my friends and I were all born between Feb 5th and 15th. We'd take several days over a weekend and totally debauch. It was grand. :-)

[panic-girl.livejournal.com]

Ooooh Capricorn fest sounds awesome! :)

As the first Cappy out of the gate, I approve. ;)

[the-fury.livejournal.com]

I am completely dependent on exercise for normal brain function and I am just not getting it because my back hurts

I know you like lifting, but have you thought of doing cardio until your back is better? You might find that a recumbant exercise cycle works well.

Or not, just a thought.

[the-siobhan.livejournal.com]

I like lifting for it's own sake. I need something that gets my heart rate up to get the chemical benefits.

Normally that's running and I was doing ok with the biking to work every day, but I'm not doing that right now because the raods are really crap.

Part of the problem is that when I get off work I'm in screaming pain and I really can't do anything. I'm trying to ease myself back into the gym on my days off work, but it's hard to do it often enough to feel the difference.

If WSIB cuts me off, I don't know what the fuck I'm going to do.

[shillolo.livejournal.com]

I could lend you my cross trainer I have no room to set it up right now?

[redheaded-pixie.livejournal.com]

"Therefore, we are planning to drag everybody into the same room at the same time to drink copiously. Brace yourselves."
Hey, guess we should probably get on with the planning of that huh? Also, it appears there's a few more to be added to the Cap-fest list? (I tell ya mang.... we're taking over!)

[the-siobhan.livejournal.com]

Yeah. Need sleep. Then planning.

[liz-lowlife.livejournal.com]

You got visitors?
No room for little Swarves then? No worries if not!



And ummm....January 17th. That's my birthday. :oD

[the-siobhan.livejournal.com]

You are some of the visitors, goose!

We're looking forward to having you here.

[liz-lowlife.livejournal.com]

LOL!

*Doh* :oD