prickly-boat
Dec. 18th, 2005 12:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
the_siobhanThe icon is what I saw when I looked in the mirror this morning.
I made an offhand comment about making a happy post a couple of days ago. I've been trying to come up with one ever since and it's not been working so well for me.
Thing is, I'm not particularily unhappy. My house is warm. My partners are lovely. There are plans for a couple of trips[1] in the works. People are visiting[2] for New Years, and hopefully for Capricorn-fest.[3]
Mostly I am under assault by chemistry again. I am completely dependent on exercise for normal brain function and I am just not getting it because my back hurts all the damn time. Add that to hate-the-job-that-is-causing-me-pain stress, is-Workman's-Comp-going-to-cut-me-off worries, fuck-I-hate-Christmas blues, another-year-older-and-deeper-in-debt angst and mix in the arrival of my twice-yearly bout of kill-everybody PMS, and I've been feeding the quagmire pretty hard in the last couple of weeks.
So as a result I've been both weepy and cranky a lot lately. But oddly enough it doesn't feel like it's really affecting me all that much. I'm still functional, I still have fun hanging out with people, I'm getting just as much done. I moan about it for a while, or burst into tears at complete random - then I just kinda get back to normal life. It's like it's all on the surface and I'm sitting below it impatiently waiting for it to get out of my way.
It's all very odd.
So yeah. Haven't been feeling like posting much about life lately and that's the primary reason why.
I do plan on picking up![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
crazy_boat again. After Xmas.
[1] My favouritest thing ever.
[2] My second-favouritest thing ever.
[3] It turns out thatmeshu, 2ndaryairplane, elixxir, bellafiga and I are all born in January. Therefore, we are planning to drag everybody into the same room at the same time to drink copiously. Brace yourselves.
I made an offhand comment about making a happy post a couple of days ago. I've been trying to come up with one ever since and it's not been working so well for me.
Thing is, I'm not particularily unhappy. My house is warm. My partners are lovely. There are plans for a couple of trips[1] in the works. People are visiting[2] for New Years, and hopefully for Capricorn-fest.[3]
Mostly I am under assault by chemistry again. I am completely dependent on exercise for normal brain function and I am just not getting it because my back hurts all the damn time. Add that to hate-the-job-that-is-causing-me-pain stress, is-Workman's-Comp-going-to-cut-me-off worries, fuck-I-hate-Christmas blues, another-year-older-and-deeper-in-debt angst and mix in the arrival of my twice-yearly bout of kill-everybody PMS, and I've been feeding the quagmire pretty hard in the last couple of weeks.
So as a result I've been both weepy and cranky a lot lately. But oddly enough it doesn't feel like it's really affecting me all that much. I'm still functional, I still have fun hanging out with people, I'm getting just as much done. I moan about it for a while, or burst into tears at complete random - then I just kinda get back to normal life. It's like it's all on the surface and I'm sitting below it impatiently waiting for it to get out of my way.
It's all very odd.
So yeah. Haven't been feeling like posting much about life lately and that's the primary reason why.
I do plan on picking up
crazy_boat again. After Xmas.[1] My favouritest thing ever.
[2] My second-favouritest thing ever.
[3] It turns out that
meshu, 2ndaryairplane, elixxir, bellafiga and I are all born in January. Therefore, we are planning to drag everybody into the same room at the same time to drink copiously. Brace yourselves.