the tension mounts -- along with the body count

[the_siobhan]

It appears that an interesting time is being had by all during this particular passage of the moon.

I have learned something about the various stress tolerances of those near and dear. Surprisingly high in some regards. Suprisingly low in some regards. Nothing surprising in that.

I have to stop dumping my crap on other people. It always leads to bad things.

(I don't have all this grey hair by accident, you know.)

Thngs are either getting better, or we are in the eye of the storm. Time will show.

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Life is settled in it's unsettledness. I am moving. It's a relief, to finally have that all decided.

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Just over two weeks until I go under the knife. Have I ever mentioned that I fucking hate surgery?

I'm freaking out people by making just-in-case plans. caspervonb in particular gets that deer-in-headlights look on his face when I start doing it. But it's a form of insurance for me. If I do all this, I won't have had to, and I can feel silly afterwards. If I don't do it, all I have to prepare myself with is worrying.

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If the purpose of this journal was to get my thoughts down in written form, what does it say the majority of the time all the energy I can muster for the damn thing is to post a poll or some other trivia?

I find them amusing. I do. I know, I suck.

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It isn't just me that's feeling the full moon either. the_fury, the_other_j and I saw multiple fights, chasing and ape-posturing chest-beatings on the way home last night.

I can't remember at what point in my life I stopped seeing that kind of loud street-scrapping as scary and dangerous and started thinking it was funny instead. After I'd been in a few genuine fights myself, probably.