recursive loop

[the_siobhan]

Axel gave me a hard time this morning about the fact that I'm not really doing the mindfulness exercises that are supposed to help me keep the depression from coming back. And he's right, I'm not. I make a half-assed attempt about once a week.

I also don't do my physio exercises every single day, or eat correctly every single day, or fuck, even go out for a walk every single day. My big accomplishment yesterday was getting the household bank account sorted out, then I spent the rest of the day playing video games. I didn't even make it out of my pajamas.

So this time it was because of crap sleep for three nights in a row making me feel like I'm going to fall over any minute. But you know, if it wasn't lack of sleep it would be something else. I know doing my "stuff" every day will make me stronger and give me more energy, but I'm having a fuck of a time finding the energy I need to do the "stuff" that will get me there.

This is just me bitching. It's Monday; seemed like the time for it.