notes from therapy

[the_siobhan]

1. So this week I found out what a flashback feels like. Or more accurately I found out that the thing that my brain does some times is what people are talking about when they say "flashback". (Hint, it's not at all like the movies.)

So neat in the objective information-gathering sense but in terms of the actual experience I'd honestly rather spend the day watching the sharks at the aquarium.

2. My therapist does this thing where she wants to talk to different parts of my personality. It's weird and it makes me self-conscious and I make the squinchy face whenever she suggests it. What's even weirder is that it actually seems to work - like if I can pretend to be the asshole in my head it tricks me into being more honest about Why Do I Do This Shit To Myself than I would be otherwise.

3. My therapist likes to give me positive reinforcement for "doing the work" which cracks me up every time only because it reminds me of this tweet.



So you know. Notes to re-read the next time I'm thinking about quitting.

Comments

[misbegotten]

I laughed at that tweet A LOT.

[sabotabby]

That tweet is 100% me.

[houseof9cats]

A good grade in everything, an F in actually coping, lol. <3

[chasing_silver]

That tweet is so me haha

[runcible]

That tweet kills me every time. I've even used it in therapy, as an example of using humor as a defense mechanism to deflect further inquiry - because if I'm cracking her up, it can't be that bad, right?

[greylock]

Or more accurately I found out that the thing that my brain does some times is what people are talking about when they say "flashback".

Do people actually experience these? I don't know.
For some reason (and it may be displaced) I do associate you with the idea of an acid flashback).

I'd honestly rather spend the day watching the sharks at the aquarium.

They're much happier in the ocean.

My therapist does this thing where she wants to talk to different parts of my personality.

I am legit strugging to imagine how this might work.

And, unlike everyone else, the tweet baffles. I understand it, but I don't grok.

[the_siobhan]

Do people actually experience these? I don't know.

Well, now you do.

[greylock]

I meant to type *I didn't know*, but words are hard.